1.0technotimes.infohttps://technotimes.infoSuhanihttps://technotimes.info/index.php/author/sayan-test/rich600338<blockquote class="wp-embedded-content" data-secret="rCQr0VgDZb"><a href="https://technotimes.info/index.php/2024/09/20/disapponitment/">Disapponitment</a></blockquote><iframe sandbox="allow-scripts" security="restricted" src="https://technotimes.info/index.php/2024/09/20/disapponitment/embed/#?secret=rCQr0VgDZb" width="600" height="338" title="“Disapponitment” — technotimes.info" data-secret="rCQr0VgDZb" frameborder="0" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" scrolling="no" class="wp-embedded-content"></iframe><script> /*! This file is auto-generated */ !function(d,l){"use strict";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&"undefined"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!/[^a-zA-Z0-9]/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret="'+t.secret+'"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret="'+t.secret+'"]'),c=new RegExp("^https?:$","i"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display="none";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute("style"),"height"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):"link"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute("src")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener("message",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener("DOMContentLoaded",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll("iframe.wp-embedded-content"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute("data-secret"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+="#?secret="+t,e.setAttribute("data-secret",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:"ready",secret:t},"*")},!1)))}(window,document); //# sourceURL=https://technotimes.info/wp-includes/js/wp-embed.min.js </script> The waves slammed onto the coast,  I could feel myself floating,  and at that moment, I wanted nothing more  than to be able to fade away. I’m taking a deep breath,  but it doesn’t seem to fill the hole in my heart.  I wonder whether it would disappear with death. the voices got louder and louder, over the course of days  “what are you expecting? pull out the trigger”, it said  i shook my head, maybe I was trying to make the little me prouder,  but if I were to pass away, what difference would it make? all the days seemed to blur together. i can’t seem to remember one. i didn’t want to be here, but whatever  as I fell into a deep slumber, i dreamt of a place where nothing was somber. in a far away land where i wasn’t a disgrace. and just like a ship adrift at sea, with no sign of land I yell for aid. but no one is there; it’s just me. I might give up on this battle now. and with my newfound absence, still, the waves would break. nonetheless, the sun would rise. only, i would disappear entirely. I never imagined it would come to this;  what a shame, soon, I would just be a memory on some shelf. maybe I had higher expectations? But that doesn’t concern me any longer. all i know is, I’m sitting here writing a letter of how i’d vanish as if I had never appeared.